the winds of change…
June 2, 2010
Okay. The first thing I have to do is admit that I’ve been listening to this song about 10 times a night (at least). A little emotional cutting never hurt anyone… right?
Alright, got that playing? Good. Now I need your help. I’m stuck.
I don’t know what to do. And now that I’m writing this, I don’t know if I can put it into words on here… but basically I don’t know how to act around Allie, but I think I’m mad at her. And my feelings are just hurt by Tim in general. I don’t know what to do. Just ignore them both? I can ignore Tim, because I don’t have to see him. I have class with Allie. I work with Allie. I can’t ignore Allie. But I can pretend that I’m not mad at her, and I can try to avoid her as much as possible. This is option 1.
Option 2 is have a calm, adult conversation with here in which I explain my hurt feelings and my need to not be her friend right now.
Option 3 is yell at her and slap her in the face. Call her a bitch and a whore.
I think option 3 would be instantly gratifying followed almost immediately by terrible guilt and regret. So maybe option 3 should just be crossed off right now. But what should I do between options 1 and 2? Help me out here… I can’t stand being in the same room as her right now, all of this indecision makes me stressed out to the point where I start to tear up.
